Ugh...setbacks

So, I was NOT feeling great these past 2 days, so it made it harder to do what I needed to, like exam prep and continuing with my workout plan. I tried to play catch up today, and I caught up on one of the days that had 2 separate workouts, and the other day was meant to be an active rest day. I'll do today's tomorrow morning, and tomorrow's in the evening, I guess.

Saturday food-
I think I ate some cheese for breakfast, but the whole day I had sharp gas pains in my side that wouldn't subside. so not much else. I had some tea, and later in the day I had some grapes and egg nog.

No fitness.

Sunday food-
What a fun day! Throbbing headache aallllllllll day long and into the evening. I had some of my sister's rice, lasagna, salad, and chicken, thinking it might alleviate if I ate something,,,but to no avail.

No fitness.

My fitbit is sad.

Lousy weekend.

Today-

Food:
banana for breakfast; pizza made on naan bread, with cheddar, feta, and broccoli. Later I had rice with chickpeas, chicken, and corn and beets

Fitness
-did the Cardio Ball Blast workout (30 mins) and then the Waistline workout (20 mins) from the other day.

NOTES
-setbacks are the worst, because it takes a little while to see progress, but once I stop, I immediately see the backslide. For example, I feel all bloaty and out-of-sorts, and, as a result, the Waistline Workout, which required some lying facedown, was immensely uncomfortable, so I didn't get all the endorphin-releasing that's meant to come post-workout. Kind of a drag.

-also, when I have no money, eating properly is difficult. Ugh. Not impressed with the days right now.

Not great, but not as bad as it could be!

Food

Breakfast-

Tim's (iced capp/croissant)

Lunch-

Chinese noodles with veggies and peanut sauce

Dinner-

Chicken breast sandwich and fries

Hurricane (cocktail)

Fitness

Apple Shape Workout

NOTES

-not a great food day...supper wasn't technically bad, but there were a LOT of fries, soo...

-the workout feels light, but I can't decide if I'm just used to Jillian Michaels' beastly ways, since I still ultimately break a sweat with this one...

The desire for eggs and egg nog...

Food:

2 slices whole wheat toast with natural peanut butter (and some salt, because, c'mon); cup of mint tea - for breakfast

Poutine (fries, cheese, gravy) for lunch

Pasta stir-fry

Soon to have egg nog

Fitness:

Flat Belly Fusion something or other

NOTES

-I already miss eggs, possibly because the natural PB is unsalted (ABSOLUTELY, though...0 mg sodium..whaaa??). I need to buy more eggs, AND possibly expand my options.

-The poutine was a cop-out. Was at school, needed to volunteer, had to eat something beforehand, went to food court.

-pasta was kinda greasy; I can definitely do better!

-never apologize for egg nog! NEVER!

-The workout didn't make me sweat like the others, just ache...looking forward to THAT shit tomorrow!

-OVERALL, I am mostly pleased that I managed to have a decent breakfast AND have to go somewhere...rarity!

Progress.

Oh, and I didn't do any Brazilian Butt/Leg Lift stuff, but I found some ballet/barre videos that I'm excited about, especially since I've been too poor to do ballet.

Until tomorrow!

SHORT, for reals!

Breakfast
-3 hard boiled eggs; 1 slice toast w/ margarine; cup of mint tea

Snack/Lunch
-broccoli and carrots with hummus

Snack
-2 pieces of cheese; cup of egg nog

Supper
6 pirogi (sp?) in pasta sauce with cheese

Fitness:
Apple Shape Workout

OH, and

yesterday I DID indeed manage to do some HIIT cardio!

NOTES (because I've decided I don't like "LESSONS")

-YAY to better eating! The eggs were good and filling. Gonna take a break tomorrow and probably have some peanut butter toast, so I can keep up the egg love.

-I still definitely need to have more to eat throughout the day to stave off the dangerous hunger pangs that lead to bad choices. That being said, I'll probably try to eat something reasonable before the day is over.

-I did my workout in the morning, which leaves room for some leg/butt toning I've been slacking on. (Natural Brazilian Butt Lift) Here's hoping the motivation is there.

-I've met most of my walking goal on my Fitbit, which is nice, but I miss the celebratory vibration when I've surpassed it.

All for tonight!

Already slacking...urrgghh

Apologies--to myself and whoever happens to read this--for the blog/fitness slacking I've been doing lately.

No excuses, I just suck (right now).

Let's get down to it and I'll try and remember what I can...trying to keep THIS one relatively short.

Thursday

Food:

Ran out to class, so I did the usual, grabbing an iced cappuccino and a cheese croissant (nooooooo). I was volunteering directly afterward, so I bought a chickpea salad(?) from the grocery store. As far as I can tell, that was relatively harmless.

AT LEAST I'M TRYING. Someone can tell me later (or not) if that was a poorer choice than I thought.

I don't remember what I had for supper...maybe soup?

Fitness

ZERO. I can feel my Fitbit judging me, but I just could NOT.

Reasoning: So, I wore rain boots to class and figured standing around for *only* 4 hours volunteering was feasible in rain boots...my feet were on fire by the end of it, and I couldn't bear to put them in shoes for another minute (I have to wear shoes, even in the house, otherwise, I'll slip and slide all over the place). My feet were still hurting the next day.

LESSON - be more realistic about my choices; think through consequences a little further.

Friday

Friday, I volunteered all day and opted to wear running shoes. My feet were still feeling it, though.

Food:

Iced capp/croissant for breakfast (I know, I'm working on it).

Chicken (shish taouk) wrap for lunch (yay, stayed away from those potatoes, though!).

Supper: I don't remember if I even HAD supper. Too tired.

Fitness

Did nothing, but that was probably pure slacking.

LESSON

Have to be more proactive about timing and preparation of breakfast, to save not only money, but reduce amount of crap in my body.

Saturday

No breakfast, and I did that thing where I did schoolwork all morning and skipped to lunch.

Food:

Not a great day for food. I know I had something small to eat in the afternoon, but then I went grocery shopping, and when I came back, I had

-a few cheese cubes and grapes

-a sizeable bowl of pasta and sauce with cheese.

I knew it was bad (white/refined pasta, aaaarrrggghhh!!!), because I felt super bloaty immediately afterward, which made choosing my outfit for my sister's birthday a little more complex. At that birthday, I had a bunch of little appetizers that included

-chicken strips

-mozzarella bites

-cheese and onion puff pastries

-cheetos

-pretzels/chips

-a decent amount of soda/juice/alcohol

Fitness:

Nope. Told ya I'd been slacking. Didn't make sufficient time for it.

LESSONS

-white pasta= try to avoid

-breakfast=aim to have some

-as for the appetizers, etc, it's kind of a given, and I have very little self-control in general, so as long as I am not eating them until I burst and beyond, I'm considering it a win.

Sunday

The day after, I felt so lethargic, probably because I don't go out much. Also felt sick and crampy, which led to dumb bingeing.

The nephews were over so it was hard to accomplish anything healthy lifestyle-related.

Food:

Pancakes and hot cocoa for breakfast. A rarity.

Lunch= a quinoa Greek salad.

Snack= a few Crispers...later, THREE g.d. May West snack cakes because cramps

Supper...I opted for more quinoa, this time stir-fried with veggies.

OH AND I accidentally put HOT peppers instead of GREEN peppers, so I hastily grabbed a plum to soothe it, and drank a whole glass of milk. Did NOT help me feel better

Fitness:

NADA, homie. Cramps + lethargy + nephew sleepover =no time/energy/space for fitness.

LESSONS

-be better prepared for breakfast

-finally jumped on to the whole quinoa thing, and, I can say I like it! I feel full without feeling bloated, which is nice.

-I make no promises about the May West, because when I'm feeling sick/have cramps, it's one of those things that soothe when the sugar hits. But I buy them rarely, because of the lack of self-control (see: Monday)

Monday

Food: 

Breakfast/lunch was the remainder of the quinoa stir-fry.

Midday, I ate THE OTHER THREE g.d. May Wests. Urgh

I bought chips to go with tzaziki I had lying around, and strawberry soda as a vessel for vodka, and ate those while I studied. Shitty choices, but felt necessary, as alcohol soothes cramps in a way aspirin doesn't always achieve, and the chips were to keep me going. This was supper.

Fitness:

I couldn't bring myself to get active, gross as I was feeling.

LESSONS

-still need to adopt a breakfast habit.

-thank God I buy May Wests SPARINGLY.

Tuesday

Today!

Food:

2 boiled eggs for breakfast (winning!) and hot cocoa with whipped cream

Quinoa stir-fry for lunch

Snack size (70g) bag of Crispers

Some broccoli with hummus

Fitness:

None so far, wish me luck.

Working on some chem homework due tomorrow, and I have to prioritize that. Whenever I do something else in-between, I am kicking myself the next day when I'm racing against the clock to submit it.

Lessons

-Welcoming eggs back into my life, hurrah! Pleasantly surprised.

-Love the quinoa, must find alternatives so I don't overdo it, as is my wont.

-DEFINITELY need to learn time-management and self-control so I can fit in schoolwork AND fitness and feel like nothing has been neglected.

OVERALL LESSONS

-work on that breakfast!

-blog errday, which helps not only recollection, but keeps these damn posts SHORT! Damn.

Here we go...

While I don't expect anyone to actually find this and want to read it, the purpose is to force myself into being held accountable in case I start letting things slide, and thinking it's okay because it's only affecting me. So, if there is an actual person reading this, great! Welcome, I say! Wish me luck!!

If not, well, then, I'm just talking to myself, and I guess that's fine, too.

Okay, so...the idea is to keep this succinct, so it won't feel like a strain on my quite lazy personality, and I won't mind checking in to keep this up-to-date.

I am chronicling my food and exercise habits, and seeing if I can kind of analyze my motivations from day-to-day, to see if I can will myself into making better choices on a regular basis.

Time to get this show on the road...

Food:

So I have a habit of waking up, logging on to do schoolwork or whatever, and not making enough time to grab myself breakfast, and ultimately running out and buying something before work or school that is delicious, but not quite healthy.

Also, breakfast is tricky for me for a number of reasons:

1) I grew up loving cereal, having it most days, and it turns out everything I love is full of sugar, so I need to make an effort to make something else, which is problematic because

2) I'm not much of a cook, and at the thought of putting forth the effort, I'll often just shut down to cope (legitimately, if I'm hungry and it's late enough, I'll sometimes opt to sleep and ignore the hunger instead). My usual alternative to cereal would generally be something in the toaster, but

3) everything is full of carbs/starch/other things that are essentially sugar in diabolical forms, and that is one of the things I need to cut back on, to get my levels down to something less potentially scary (for trainers/doctors etc to see)...

My best option is probably eggs, but I have a weird relationship with eggs, and am trying to get myself to like them again...don't ask. Healthy breakfast options overall don't really appeal to me, so OBVIOUSLY that would be the MOST IMPORTANT MEAL OF THE DAY. The struggle, though...

I truly feel like once I get a good handle on breakfast, other things will fall into place a little more.

Anyway, this thing is already too long (look who's breaking promises to herself again so soon!), so let's get down to it

FOOD -

Did schoolwork until noon, so I decided I could skip to lunch...had rice and chicken with gravy (the rice is a no-no, since it was white rice, but I work with what I have!) and some lemonade...SOOO much sugar in that lemonade, undoubtedly, but I at least opted for a smaller glass...

Came back from school, had a few pieces of cheese, a piece of celery with hummus, and a piece of a veggie patty. Still trying to work out ACTUAL supper.

I also had a little bit of the lemonade mixed with vodka.

FITNESS
I did about 30 minutes of Jillian Michaels Cardio Kickbox, which I like, because when I'm consistent with activity, I feel strong doing it. She's a monster and I love it. It doesn't involve lying on the floor, which I like because I get up too fast and my head spins, or my boobs threaten to murder my face.
Today it felt a bit boring though. I might need to get some new videos and switch things up.

Boredom is NOT good.